Thanks friends

I wasn’t going to post this but…the best way to kill mold is to turn the light on it and hang it out to dry.

I got this comment on my blog this morning….I was tempted to not post it but then I decided I should…complete with email and IP address.

 From: Truth Seeker

hey there you free speech phony, yeah right…YOU!!!and pull your pants up!!

you are a hypocrite liar who publicly preaches free speech (except when it is something with which you disagree)but who really hates open discourse.

let’s see how stupid you people really are: (rules of the truly stupid souless morons):

1. anyone who might say, “hey, you have a black mark on your {record}{shirt} {soul}” is a racist devil to be destroyed.
If i say “that black mark on your record is one ugly baby” I should have my gonads removed by a team of man hating lesbian trasgendered half elf midgets with a speech impediment.

Pay attention to which media outlets are pumping up this story. These are the enemies of free speech.

2. Only black people can use the word “lynched”, even if they live in Lynchberg, Tenn. or Lynchberg, Va. And they should be fired if they aren’t black. All whites who are named Lynch must be sent to a concentration camp run by …. you get the idea.

3. If i say “white lie” I am a racist who must be destroyed, unless I am a homo, woman, oriental, indio, or….anything besides a white male.

This reminds me of the lynching of Don Imus. And that was concocted to discipline the talk show host roster to not speak ill of Hillary.

email: b_roberts76@yahoo.com
IP Address:  67.166.108.78

Feel free to email him, use his email address on porn sites or any other fun things you can think of.

Peace

 *Edit* I would also like to comment on how big of a bitch this guy is…first he posts using “Truth Seeker” rather than his real name, but in another blog…or three that I know of, he posts the EXACT SAME THING, but uses ANOTHER name. This guy is not smart, creative or intelligent enough to come up with new posts…it takes a real deep thinker to copy/paste. So “Truth Seeker,” you are a huge pussy, and here is why. Your email is b_Roberts, which I assume stands for “bitch Roberts” but on a different blog you post under the name David Lynch, which I assume is a reference to the comments that your dad, Chris Buttars, made a few days ago about being “lynched” even though last time I checked he was NOT being “lynched” maybe called out for being the bigot he is, but lynched he was not, not even close, not even a good comparison. Hey “truth seeker, B_Roberts, or David” why aren’t you using your real name? Is it because you don’t stand behind the comments you made? Is it because you are afraid of the repercussions? Is it because your mom might find out you are in the basement looking at gay porn and typing bigoted comments on blogs when you should be doing Social Studies? Are you afraid if your Bishop read these things you wouldn’t be able to go with the Teachers Quorum to Camp Tracy? Why are you not using your real name? Why are you not being consistent with your aliases? That might be to many questions for a little boy like you to comprehend, so I will make it easy. Why are you such a vile person?

I’m not sad anymore!

Ok, so here is the thing. Last night I was all pissy and tired and was acting like an entitled baby and forgot who I was for a minute. Nan helped me realize what is really going on. If I let people I don’t care about dictate how I feel they win. People who claim to “love” me but only if I think, feel and act the way they do, don’t love me.

So to all my friends who are there for me, thanks I know who you are, and you know who you are. For all you people that think there is only one way to live….Suck It!

Oh and to the last caller on FTP last night…you claim that polygamy is perversion just like homosexuality? Well you might want to do some research on what goes on in your Highest Degree of Glory in the Celestial Kingdom

Peace

I’m Sad

I am a little sad right now, here is the story. 

There is a talk radio show I LOVE LOVE LOVE…KVNU For the People (weekdays on 610 KVNU from 4pm – 6pm.) For any of you outsiders to this little valley I live in here is the link and here is a little bio about this talk radio show. The hosts are Tom and Ryan, from what I know they are local guys, they are in their 20’s and are libertarians. These guys are so nice, and super smart. I have had lunch with them on several occasions, Cache Valley has a luncheon for local bloggers, and they are always so nice.

Tom and Ryan cover mostly local topics, but because of the time of year they are talking a lot about State and National issues. I am not a huge political junkie, I don’t know what they are talking about 50% of the time and have a hard time following a long…in the National issues. State and local issues I have a pretty good grasp on who is who, and who supports what.

As most people know there was a State Legislator who used the term “Black Ugly Baby.” I don’t want to go into the details, if you want the context and the audio go to the KVNU website I linked above. Anyway some are saying it is racial, some are saying it was a poor choice of words, some are saying people are reading into nothing. FYI I believe he is a racist and it was an accident his racist side slipped out, I digress.

Tom and Ryan today interviewed a lady named Gayle Ruzicka, she is a member of the Eagles Forum. Her organization is coming to the defense of Chris Buttars, the man who said “Black Ugly Baby.” Tom and Ryan were conducting the interview when it got a bit heated, they were making points about Chris’s past of racial remarks, and she was defending them. Tom and Ryan pointed out all the instances where he shows his true colors, not only against black people, but against homosexuals. Chris once referred to a colleague as “The Gay” and is blaming the uproar about “Black Ugly Babies” on homosexuals. ANYWAY I continue to digress…

Tom and Ryan, who are LDS, began to talk about a piece of legislation Chris is sponsoring that would eliminate a registry that would protect the rights of same sex couples, and adults who are caring for another adult i.e. a child caring for their elderly parent, Tom and Ryan began to ask the real reason the Eagles Forum and Chris Buttars are behind this bill. She began by answering that is was against the law, Tom and Ryan saw right through that and were trying to get to the root of this bill, and they finally did. She thinks that homosexuality is wrong, thus she can’t have gay people in her state getting any benefits that she enjoys. 

So after Tom and Ryan school her and move into the next hour, several callers call to talk about the interview. Most are pretty mundane and don’t break any new ground, nothing to write home about…except the last caller he made me so sad. To sum up his call here is his point. Homosexuality is gross and I don’t like gross stuff. Gay people don’t deserve the same rights as I do because I think they are gross.

If you are still reading my point is coming up, stick with me.

I guess here is why I am sad. In the past 18 months I have all but lost my relationships with my family because they don’t like that I am gay. I have lost my religion because they don’t like I am actively gay. I have lost my best friend because I am gay, and people I don’t even know are saying I am perverted, I am disgusting and I have no rights to rights.

I have come to terms with my homosexuality, I am okay with it, but do you think for one second I like that I had to leave my church? Do I like that the best word to describe my relationship with my family is “strained?” Do you think it makes me feel good to hear politicians blaming societies ills on the gay community? And could someone tell me what the gay community is? I am so confused where all the gay people are living, I want to live near them. Does anyone think for one second that I like being in fear for my safety when on a date?

I pay more than my share of taxes, I don’t break laws, I don’t molest kids, I don’t try to convert people to be gay, I don’t steal, lie or cheat. I am not an alcoholic….here is what I am.

I work 65 hours a week to pay the bills.
I go to USU full time.
I help my friends in need anytime with anything.
I love animals.
I love anything to do with cars
I love the outdoors
I love laughing at nothing
I love helping people I don’t know
I love taking my nephews places (something I am no longer aloud to do because I will convert them)
I love playing games with my nieces/nephews (which I do now under severe scrutiny)
I love talking to old people
I love Utah history
I love working in the yard
I love watching movies with friends
I love going to church…and am actively searching for a denomination that will accpet me
I love to sing
I love to dance
I love going to batting cages

I am sad because I am so many things, so many good things….I have done so many good things…but people who don’t know me still want me to be unhappy…does my happiness make you less happy? Would allowing me the ability to marry make you love you wife less?

I guess I am most sad because I can’t change who I am attracted to….two years of therapy didn’t change it and 24 years of praying sure didn’t change it, but people still think this is my choice and I am causing them pain. I am sorry if you feel I am disgusting, I am sorry if you feel I am ruining your life, I am sorry that if I were to deny myself the chance of happiness you would finally accept me. I can’t fix this. 

I want to thank Tom and Ryan for all the good they do. I know that they do have different views than I do on homosexuality. I assume, since they are LDS, they feel that it is not morally right to act on your homosexual feelings, but they still think that homosexuals deserve equal rights and equal protection. I never really believed them until todays interview with Gayle, they honestly believe the things they say…I felt like Tom was talking about me, defending me at one point, I don’t think he was, but it felt like it, and it felt good to know there was someone on my side. It felt good that there was a person with an audience trying to combat what he felt was an injustice. Tom and Ryan are amazing people, I have so much respect for these two men.

Thanks Tom and Ryan!!!

Peace

Valentines?

Well, it seems like all the cool people are talking about love and crap, so I decided to post about that as well….only with a twist.

Why it ROCKS to be single.

You know what I am doing right now? I am eating a stolen cake in bed. Two things I could not do if attached, well three if you were dating the my previous boyfriend, he hated my diet. 1) Eat cake in bed 2) Steal a cake 3) Eat cake.

 When attached you have to account for your time, and here is how the conversation goes.

Significant Other: “Where were you?”
Me: “At work”
SO: “You got off at 5:00 it is 5:30″
Me: “Yeah, and?”
SO: “I know it takes 5.345253 minutes to get home and here it is 5:30″
Me: “I guess I left work late”
SO: “How late?”
Me: “Screw you and get out of my house”

I know you can relate to that convo as you have had it before.

Other reasons single is better, you can go wherever, whenever and listen to anything you want, and the temperature in your car is PERFECT. I can go for long drives up the canyon and listen to anything I want without the whole “what do you want to listen to?” Conversation which inevitably ends up with something you both hate, but because you are both so bad at making decisions for fear the other person will hate the music you want listen to, you end up listening to the “Titanic” sound track and wishing you were at home jamming pens in your eye, but don’t worry your car is hotter than HELL because “my feet are cold.” Screw you, buy some wool socks.

I can do, or not do my hair how I want. If I don’t want to get a haircut, I don’t have to. If I want to let my neck beard grow long, I will let it and the only person that will complain is my co-worker Jess….only because when she knows she is wrong she makes off-topic personal attacks just so she can win a fight.

I can wear whatever I want. If I want to wear aviators circa 2001 I will. If I want to wear slippers to IKEA and The White Owl I will. If I want to wear a shirt that says “Boner” or “My Peace is Growing” I will. I once had a shirt I thought I liked, I was wrong. I was told I did not like that shirt…don’t worry though, I threw out all the shirts I was told I did like.

People in relationships have to acknowledge holidays created by a consumer driven world, even if they both agree “let’s not do anything this Valentines” the sensitive person in the relationship will bitch to all their friends about how their significant other “blew off” Valentines. I have never known a couple who agreed to not celebrate Valentines and were okay with not getting anything…and anyone who says they got nothing from their sig. other and were okay with it is a pathological liar, or is the “man” in the relationship and here is how the convo goes….

Your Friend: “Oh my gosh I came home and Mr. Right bought me 46 dozen roses, a 5 carat diamond ring and a new Lexus! What did your man get you?”
You: “Well we both decided that this year we weren’t going to get anything for each other…I already have the best gift he can give, his love!”
YF: “Oh my heck how pissed are you?”
You: “Oh I was a little bugged for a while, but I got over it.”
YF: “Seriously if my boyfriend blew me off like yours did to you I would, like totally shoot him.”
You: “Oh no, we agreed to this, and I am fine with it….FINE.”

So you then hang up your phone and call your best friend who has no idea the “deal” you made with your significant other and trash talk him for about 3 hours then decide to withhold sex for about three weeks, but never tell him why you are mad…he should jsut know right? The only way he will ever know the reason you are mad at him is about six months later when he is pissed he has to go with you to 27 Dresses or some shit and you inform him that “he owes you” because he ruined Valentines day.

I can get FAT FAT FAT then starve myself for a month and no one will “worry about my health.” Or tell me “I’m going to change your diet.” Yup, that’s exactly what I want to change a diet that involves eating an entire cake by myself, you are right I am miserable.

I can sleep in all day watch reruns of News Radio and not shower all weekend and no one will tell me I am “wasting a day.” A wasted day starts with a “chore list” and ends with sharing a bed with someone who wont put out. I would rather hire a maid, a hooker and eat cake while the hooker cries. (Ok I think that last part is hillarious, hopefully my mom never reads this!)

So to all you people in relationships, good for you. For all you people who are single…go steal a cake and enjoy the night.

Peace

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